Loosing the Friend Focus

Recently I've realised that I am possibly neglecting some people very close to me.
I can't quite put my finger on why.
Things do get hectic. The 9-5 absorbs your energy and spark. You get wrapped and and loose focus. You receive texts that take hours or maybe days to reply to as you just naturally forget because of the hustle and bustle around you.

This came to light when a friend kind of mislead me about her birthday plans. She told me the date that she would do something and kept it clear in the diary. The Thursday before I hadn't heard anything, so I texted her. I got a reply saying that she was going for a quiet meal.
This in fact is a lie.
She went out for her birthday.
She got very drunk on her birthday.
How do I know?
My best mate went.

Now it could be a simple explanation like, she doesn't think I'm 'cool' enough to hang out with her other circle of friends. Maybe she doesn't class me as a good or best friend any more.
I hope it's the first and not the latter.
If it is the latter, then some big changes need to start happening.

I feel I'm quite fortunate that I make friends. I like to socialise and meet new people and as great as this sounds, it's a flaw.
Sometimes you have to many invites and you have to let people down. But sometimes you sit alone looking at what all your other friends are doing through a computer screen.

Recently, I've seen status updates and uploaded photos of events and days out that my friends and our mutual friends hitting the beach, going in to town and I always think.. Oh!Where was my invite.
But maybe that's it.
Maybe I'm not worthy of an invite as I've been a bad friend.

I NEED to change this. I need to fix or repair the missing connections.

I'm not even sure where to begin to regain focus

Blur at Glastobury & Hyde Park

Blur at Glastonbury & Hyde Park have essentially made my summer.I was never a massive blur fan when they came out, as I was a youngster and my friends where crushing over the latest pop boy band but I eventually discovered Blur through the Great Escape album and have loved them ever since.

I'm no die hard fan but I am a fan and I have never felt more like a fan until the last week.

The Euphoria at Glastonbury (or 'Glastonberry' as our American friends would say) was immense. Everyone eager and ready to go to sing along to those classics we all love. The crowd was a mix of those, Brit Pop Boys & Girls, the older generation who appreciate a good band or two, people like myself who have never seen Blur live before and the 90's kids; the ones that discover the best bands of our times whilst knowing every new band that appears in NME.

The audience sang every song, bounced, jigged and moved. Teenage Crushes reformed. Blur were back and it was like they were never gone. When Damon broke down and had a little sob, we all felt for him. It must felt incredible with Thousands and Thousands of people singing your song long after the song had finished.

Amazing Fans.

Hyde Park was just as amazing. With the sun blazing down, the boys came out with energy, passion and determination. The raw emotions were still there teamed up with a whole lot of love.

I got whipped up in the energy, riffs, chants and tunes and finished the show close to tears during 'The Universal'

Seeing Blur twice in 5 days, makes me want to see them all over again and the whole experience can only be summed up with

I. HEART. BLUR